I truly want it.

I’ve recently decided to join this century and get a Twitter account. And by ‘recently’ I mean a couple of weeks ago and by ‘decided’ I mean a friend talked me into it. So I gave it a shot and discovered, much to my chagrin, that “Fictional Impulse” is one character too long for our friends at Twitter. As such, my Twitter account is @FictionImpulse (and eventually this blog might change to reflect that depending on how it goes). So please feel free to come follow me. And I do update it more often than I do this blog. I promise.

Last week (I think, the days are starting to blur), I also finished the first edit of the manuscript! I settled in to edit a single scene and when I realized how close I was to the end, I decided to just keep going. That meant that I stayed up far too late, but I stay up far too late most nights anyhow – and surely this is a better reason than watching TV. This does not mean, in any way, that I’m about to be sending my work off to a publisher. There is a lot of minor rewriting to be done (highlighted paragraphs here and there that need reworking) as well as one major rewrite section (Chapter 2). I need to go through it with a broader comb now and look for content edit questions. And I also need to put it through a few readers, only one of which I’ve selected. Oh, and I’d like to have all of that done by the end of the summer at the ABSOLUTE latest. What with all of my free time, that’s a totally realistic deadline. Right?

Since I finished that first pass edit a week ago, I’ve also done the first draft rewrite of Chapter 2. Am I thrilled with it? Well, I’m not sure. I wrote it whilst killing time in a bad mood with a few glasses of wine and haven’t looked at it since. But even if it needs to be completely rehashed, I do know that I like the *idea* that is now committed to paper (screen) and that’s most important for me. I can massage the words themselves later. It was the idea that needed to be reworked.

Other writing related stuff…my crit class is done until the fall but in the meantime several of us have decided to run a little writer’s group over the summer which I’m quite enjoying. I’ve received a few more copies of my rewrite of Chapter 1 back and everyone seems to think I pulled it off and pulled it off well.  And scenes from Book 2 are slowly starting to pull themselves together. On the one hand, I’d like them to pull themselves together a bit quicker. On the other hand, I don’t see myself having time to even start the thing until September.

Despite all of the time I spent worrying about how on earth I was going to write while Kid 1 was on holidays, I can already see that that’s not going to be the issue. Kid 1 will leave me alone for an hour if I ask him too. He knows how to play by himself, he just doesn’t always want to do so. The problem is going to be my sweet little baby who I love to bits and who has decided that napping is for suckers (that being said, he is napping right now for once, which is why you’re getting a post).  He’s teething, of course, and is therefore more often miserable than he has usually been. And when I can manage to get him down for a nap it’s usually not for more than half an hour tops. Even less if I happen to get him napping in his crib. He does sleep most nights though, so I suppose this is what I get for having that luxury.

To top it all off, I’d really like to get back into painting. I’ve been feeling a rather desperate need to re-centre as well, which means I should start exercising and taking yoga again too. I feel like, especially with the writing, I need to carve out a time to do it, but every time I settle down and try to figure out how I’m completely flummoxed. Get up really early like 4am writer or go to bed really late? Neither seems doable…I’m not a morning person at all and by night I’m just exhausted. I do stay up  too late most nights but I tend not to expend any more energy than it takes to watch some television. But the days are so unpredictable. Even if I do get the baby on a schedule, how much am I going to accomplish if he only sleeps for twenty minutes??

This is my mantra right now and believe me when I say I’m clinging to it: If you truly want it, you’ll find a way. If you don’t, you’ll find an excuse.

4 thoughts on “I truly want it.

  1. I’ m glad to hear Twitter is working out for you! I don’ t think you’ ll need to change the name of your blog to match your Twitter account, lots of people can’t get an exact match on their names but it all works out. ;p
    Also glad to hear you’ve got a summer writing group. Why do associations always assume they won’t have enough people interested during the summer?

    • Yeah I just meant that if I have to get into a ‘branding’ thing eventually. But we’ll see what happens. For now I’m happy with the two the way they stand.

      The class I take is run by one guy (he runs workshops and classes all over Ont. actually) and he always takes time off in the summer, as well as a couple of months in the winter. We decided we wanted something to keep us writing over those months so the group came to be out of that. We’re running it as a separate thing from the class at the moment, but I’m interested to see how it grows and changes over time as well.

  2. Of course you know what I’ll say! Get up early! Haha. No, I really don’t suggest it for most people, because such a schedule is wearing. It works for me mainly because I have always, even as a child, loved early mornings. So I think it’s naturally ingrained in me.

    The unpredictability of the day is the other thing that motivates me into getting up at 4am. Now that the kids sleep thru the night, it is the one block of time that is least likely to be interrupted. With your little one, getting up early might not be worth it if he/she isn’t yet sleeping thru the night.

    It takes about 21 days to build a habit. So, if you do find a time that is ideal to work, make sure you do it for about 21 days straight. Then it’s a habit and your body/mind/spirit adjust accordingly, making it a piece of cake to maintain the schedule.

    I will definitely find you on Twitter, although I don’t update my account as much as I do my blog–other than the automatic tweets that announce when I’ve posted on my blog. One of my tasks on that horrendous to-do list is to find a way to be more regular with Twitter and FB.

    • Well the baby is (usually) sleeping through the night. I toyed with the idea of getting up at 5am (eep) but what scares me off of that is how early I’d have to go to bed to make that work. The little one sometimes isn’t in bed/asleep until at least 11, which means we’re often going to bed at midnight or later. I’m thinking maybe I need to take an hour or two in those evening hours (once Kid 1 is down) and just do it.

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