Rambling post since I can’t seem to edit at the moment…

Argh, I absolutely hate it when I have an opportunity to get some work done and I can’t get my head into it! Baby 2 is sleeping at the moment (though perhaps not for much longer, he’s already been down for far longer than usual) and Kid 1 is sitting on the couch playing a video game with the sound turned off. I started editing while Kid 1 was playing outside but only got through one page before he had to come back in. Well, I thought naively to myself, I’ll just park him in front of a game and continue until the baby wakes up. Naive indeed. My brain is just not interested in doing this right now…everything, absolutely everything is distracting me. The back and forth ticking of the swing. Kid 1’s incessant coughing and muttering to himself about the game. I could remove myself to another room and, if the baby does stay asleep by the time I’m done this post, I probably will. Of course, that should guarantee that he wakes up.

I have managed to keep up with my editing quotas for the past few days but that has meant going to bed far too late. Far far FAR too late. We usually try to watch a show once Kid 1 is in bed, even if the baby is not yet asleep. For some reason for the past few days, we’ve been starting these shows later, which means that I’m not even beginning the edit until about 11pm. By the time I’m done, it’s midnight. Then I still have to get washed up and into bed, which often takes a while. And then the alarm goes off at 6. Writing on no sleep is one thing – I’ve done it a million times and the nice thing is that you can always polish it up once you’ve rested. But editing on no sleep? I have a sneaking suspicion that things are catching up to me. So my plan at the moment is to carve out that hour earlier. Only a little. Maybe 9 to 10 or 10 to 11. We can do our one TV show right before or maybe right after if I do 9-10. But somehow I need to get more sleep. I have a baby that actually sleeps through the night most of the time (touch wood), so I feel that there’s pretty much no excuse for me to be dragging myself through my days feeling like I’ve had to get up with him every two hours like I did in the beginning (or with Kid 1 when he was a baby). This is leaving me with no energy to edit, no creativity to work on those rewrite sections and no patience for dealing with a five year old boy.

Oh and I’m still hoping to cram in yoga. Somewhere. Oy.

A last side note – at my writing group last week, we did a writing-prompt exercise and the prompt I did has actually inspired a short story. This is so rare for me that I felt I needed to call it out. I have absolutely no idea when I’ll ever have time for something like that (2025, I’m thinking) but I’m trying to keep it on one of the closer backburners so that I can give it some attention sometime soon.

3 thoughts on “Rambling post since I can’t seem to edit at the moment…

  1. Never fails does.it. I try to carve out 2 hours in the afternoon where my kids can quietly read or play and I can get my blogging/emailing done. That kind of work doesn’t require my full concentration unlike my writing/editing, which is why that can only be done early morn. But more often than not, my kids get bored in less than 2 hours and are up in my study bothering me for something. 🙂

    That’s super news about your short story. Don’t let it drift away too far, now. Best to hop on it while it’s still burning your mind. I know that’s difficult, but maybe your husband would be okay if you sacrificed one night of TV so that you can at least get some bones down.

    And get that sleep! 🙂

    • My husband would definitely let me skip a night of TV…it’s me who needs to convince myself since I so often feel I need that downtime. And if I do find myself in front of my computer, I find it difficult to tackle any project other than the editing right now (though, admittedly, having another unrelated project on the go would probably help the editing overall….)

      Two hours eh? The only way I’m getting two hours of peace from the five year old is if I let him play a video game for that time (not happening)…or he isn’t home. 😉

  2. That was exactly me last night. The twins were sleeping, partner was in their room so I could ignore any cries – it was his ‘shift’ – but I just couldn’t get my head into editing.
    I think the main reason in my case was fear. Fear at starting such a daunting task. I’ve already decided that half the first chapter has to go and I’ve barely picked up my pen! Scary. 😦

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